Today was a day just like one of those people will feel?

The feeling of giving up.

Even though I have been keeping up the "never give up" attitude, today I didn't practice what I preached.

I went jogging with Spencer feeling fucked up. When we came to pull ups section, we did tgt.
Even when I couldn't do anymore, I tried. I pushed, but I still couldn't hit 7 pull ups. Slowly, I wanted to give up. However, Spencer helped lift my legs up to aid me with pull ups. I reached the limit and I just couldn't take it.

With all the shit that happened or is going on in my mind, I had to release them all. I punched the metal pole real hard. He knew he should let me take a breather. And he did. I walked around to cool myself down and then Spencer said, come on we got more pull ups to do. And he helped me again.

It's not about the inability to do the pull ups, but it's the lesson I learnt from this. Although life hasn't been great, and I have tried so much so hard to make it better, I can't give up now. It's because of his simple help to aid me with the pull ups, I see the need to continue on.

The problem with true friends are, even though they know that it irritates the hell out of you by saying some stuff. They still say them. Because they know it helps you to get back onto your feet and they want you to come back strong.

Haven't teared in a long time, but today I did. Been holding back myself for too long. Won't be seeing this side of me for a long time to come.

Even though you irritate the shit out of me Spencer, I know you mean well. Thanks buddy.