Been attacked by FATIGUE recently. These weeks to come won't be smooth sailing.

Guess this fatigue sticking like a chewing gum on me is making some people and myself irritated.
I'm not unhappy or anything, but some people think so and soon they can't be bothered with me.
So to say, people don't wanna care for each other.
These days people are rather fake.
Well these weeks are making me blend into the colors of this world.
There's no right or wrong.
There's no black or white.

THIS WORLD IS JUST COVERED WITH PATCHES OF GRAY.
It's the truth. The truth hurts.

Well... after looking at how I have been living my life, I think it's time to make a change. If the world is going to be gray, I'll choose to be different. To those who think there's no such thing as true this and that, then they have already sealed their own fate. Cause I make my own destiny, I choose not resign to fate.

Wondering why am I still awake. To those whom I see almost everyday, you people know who are you, I apologize.

Just a boy trying to catch his breathe in this asphyxiating world.

Another nice love song.. Enjoy

Today marks the first full week of my attachment. At none other than CPTC. At first I saw this as a boring programme taking my holidays, where I would be much better left sleeping at home. However, it seems like it's rather interesting. Especially the practicals. Awesome.

However, today's prac was much to my disappointment. It was about AIR SYSTEMS. It is rather complicated and we had to put on ear plugs. This led to us not being able to hear much of what the trainer wanted us to hear. But nonetheless, pracs are things one should look out for man. Am so waiting to climb the 10 storey distillation tower.. tho I am afraid of heights.

Overall this is the kinda week I've been leading, quite fruitful I guess (at least much better than sleeping and doing nothing at home). Looking forward to more fun and experience learning for the weeks to come.

And oh yea, too bad they don't allow the taking of photographs, unless I wanna die young I shall not take any pics.

To everyone, may God bless you.
Have a pleasant week to come.
Xav...

It's hard to be me now... even when I am at home now. With my family members around me, I can't bear to show them my weak side. I don't wanna make them worried and waste their time on me.
I just don't want them to know that I am such a useless person.
I need a hug badly... But it seems like I don't know who to call. I just wished someone could notice how I am now...

I don't know...