Ever seen superman with a snow cap(beanie) =x
WAH HOOO!!! Ok superman's back in action -.-" Forgive me being lame...
Enjoyed todae though was looking down all the way... but deep inside u all noe i did enjoyed... haha... Loved the kuachis from shahirah, loved the letters from affan and shahirah... And last but not least my sexy converse shoes from Brenda&Zaid!!!!!! (both of them really noe i love black sexy black!!)
Went to the henderson bridge where we slacked and just enjoyed the breeze.... zaid... i still remember the mr. anderson thing hahahaha LOL.... Hope shahirah liked the bottle(she smsed me saying like?... I LOVE it) hahas.... Hope alif liked his new shoe bag!!!( Though i told u the price... sorry uh) just use it everytime to make me feel good!!.... Hope brenda liked the cuddily cute bear named BREN( sorry uh the name not tat nice =x... hug it to slp!!!).... Hope affan liked the new shirt( sorry the receipt gone le so must fit into the shirt no matter wat!! haha)...
Sorry to zaid for not giving u anything.... but i promised to get u something u need just wait for it to appear hahaha i promise i will do it =).....

Am real happy now thanks to every single one of you... and i cant help but stare at all the presents.... hehe.... converse is so OMG!! haha... psps...

Thanks for helping me move on in life(you know who) =) Appreciate you all in my life =)

Chao!

This is for the ones who believe their lives won't change
Hoping that someday things will mend and be the same
And this is for the ones who have lost it all
When all that's left to gain
Is a simple reminder that the things that we're blind to slip away

How can I say
Say I'll be okay

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

Now that the line's been broken
I'm too afraid to just look back
The pages have left an empty space
You were all I had
Why does it have to be this way
These things they'll never change
Still I'm left with knowing, content and happy, this is all I need

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

And if I fall through these days that go by without cause
Just a painful mistake has left me here on my own
And if I fall through these nights I can't seem to go on
Just a sign that you're with me gives me the strength to hold on

Well i feel much happier and more self confident now... and from today onwards... towards a confident xavier =)
Can only put one big smile to that....

Thanks brenda for the talk... and ofc every single one of my wonderful classmates who are nothing but good and frens i treasure in my heart... hmms special thanks to aleeve for being there every now and then as a listening ear.. i noe i have been a problematic kid for a long time... but thanks a million which is not enuf still....

Thanks alot to brenda too... though i have been not really been a good person... thanks for noticing the change in me and such.. thanks for th words that helped me stop looking down on myself... thanks alot... million thank yous too... =)

For zaid... Friends?

Guess things havent changed actually eh??... well guess it's true... When i thot by making a change which is still me things might be better.... well it got better but i cant hide this anger in my me whenever this wonderful person is around... and this is wat's making my angry feelings come out which might turn things back to the way it was.... where i wasn't as open which mean i have to suffer the feeling of being ignored....by...

Seriously, why does he have to continue to try to make me gulp down lots of vinegar when i am on the road to forgetting sorrows... Seriously save me of your sacarsm and hypocracy.... stop trying to be a good person cause i do have eyes and feelings to tell me wat to do actually... trying to forgive and forget but like i just wanna say freaking read in between the lines...

Tired of this and trying hard to cover the sadness behind this fake smile... well i am changing and it's still the same me but such people is trying to make me go back to the way i was which is not exactly good and healthy for me....

PISS OFF PLS!!

Oh one more thing... i remembered u said...she's not even in ur religion and u are just frens only... If u said that and still continue doing this, this shows u are just playing with her feelings... cos u said u will not be with a non ur religion.... i am not trying to play religion but u did say that.... so if u are not gonna be with someone not from ur religion... wat are u doing now?? pls explain ur frigging actions and u are succeeding if u are trying to get me off her back... If u are true and both are happy i will ofc let her go... if u are playing with her and hurt her.... sorry to say...... i hate players...

Today has been a tiring day bleh......

Met with brenda and shahirah to go school hehe... wah kena cheated by SMRT they showed me that the train was a do not board train... howeva when it reached woodlands.. it was a pasir ris train... -.- got cheated and brenda was like- Yishun people haiz... thank God we reached school on time hehe...

Microbio rocks!! (my ass...) so tiring la..... well during microbio i've not been rather patient with people so to say... guess my bro from another mother knows why.... Well but i guess tomorro i will get over this thing... and tiredness... it's just a one off thing(learnt this word today) hopefully.. haha.. Gonna be patient and continue to be happy as long as you are happy..

Thanks aleeve sayang... for helping me with the making of my new blogskin haha... thanks a million... thanks for that fire too -.-"

Things, problems and maybe he is just problematic...

He is confirm "not the same cos nothing much has happened this yr"...
He is ok cause "nothing bad happened"...
He is ok cause life has been "good"....

He is OK cos of a fren who was there as always... Kudos to that fren

HAHA am feeling rather high and happy todae =)

School was kinda fun todae as Aleeve, Brenda, Sin kim, Shahirah, Trudy, Zaid and i went to teh karaoke(however you spell it hahas) at moberly in moi school haha. Quite fun as aleeve and zaid was taking the mic and having fun. Didn't sing though haha dun blame me la i shy heehee....

After school planned to go watch a movie called MAX PAYNE haha but in the end we didnt but it's ok since we are gonna change to another day where more people can go so not so bored hahaha... Took the mrt and shahirah wanted to go to vivo city where i wanted to go too then i kinda said ok thinking aleeve also will go then not so boring mah... then actually only i going then in the end never go with shahirah... She went herself lei, i feel so bad... SORRY shahirah I promise to buy you break fast some day ya?? i am so bad... Sorry..

Ended up in RP with aleeve where we made use of the sockets and the internet to ease our boredness haha... OH ya oh ya be4 that we went to LJS AGAIN!! to have our lunch... WAH at this rate of LJS i will die lor.. haha.. We spent time till about late 4pm then his frens came... Quite a pleasant bunch of people and frenly to me since i am like the only chinese there.. haha thanks aleeve.. BUT BUT be4 all these happened we were looking thru pics of a fren of aleeve and we were kinda laughing away at some details haha so bad BAD lor we shud cut down on all these haha... Walked arund and we saw a stall doing ambigrams and 1st thot brenda!!! Called her then told her about it and she asked me to help her make first haha... And ofc i did heehee... Made one for moi self too =).. Oh ya brenda the whistle for MARCUS the dog isit?? heehee just asking .. Cause i remembered the black colored dog on ur dp haha.. Good memory eh?? =)

After that we parted at the mrt station and be4 that he said something kinda sick but ya i dun mind haha..(DONT TELL ANYONE U SICK MAN HAHAHA, MY BRUDER THEN DUN TELL HOR) =)~

Went into the mrt and when i turned arund i realised someone behind me haha... OMG i didn't noe GEN was there.. NA mer qiao arr(so coincidental arr) haha... Waved in front of her face then she noticed me haha... Talk a bit and then had to alight at yishun cause it's my stop.. GEN talk to you tomorrow hor haha and ya i am ok and i am sure haha... MISS you too since so long never tok le ='(

Reached home and kinda slacked and went to the doc as i am having sores arund moi mouth pain and itchy sobs... haha.. i saw the notice open at 7.30PM then waited for about 15 mins be4 realising another notice below saying "closed on friday nights".... -.-".... yea i was like this haha... ofc went to another doc to see as realli getting bad haha...

Yea that's about moi day and before i go i wanto thank Alina for being concern =) yea thanks for being a great leader and fren to me.. And one more thing i love moi class haha especially the grp i usually go too... ALIF, BRENDA, SHAHIRAH, SIN KIM, TRUDY, ZAID, KA JUN and moi, heehee, BUT i also love others in my class.. realli happy to be in this class.. Oh ya brenda rest well haha can tell you very tired and aleeve thanks for spending time with me and dun worry not being gay(am not gay relax) haha

...Till then...

Today have been a great day!!! Aleeve, Brenda, Zaid and i went to catch eagle eye the movie.. =)
Not bad for a movie but really enjoyed their company... =)
After being with them for quite some time i realised that i really like their company and enjoy them as frens who are so lively =)
Thanks guys for being moi fren and if i never met u guys, it would be the greatest regret in moi life... Love ya guys...
To be exact i love you all from my class 1A01 and 1B01 =)

Brenda is about to leave for studies overseas and we will miss her loads... She is one lively and nice person where she will bring joy to people she come into contact with =)
May she have a pleasant journey and enjoy her studies and ofc come back every once in a while to meet up with us =)

Currently i am feeling rather down and out or this world... Rather alone and emotional... Well after seeing and finding out things not supposed for your well being, ofc i will feel lost. Seeing how things turned out for my parents, really made me think hard.. Since love is like so lovey dovey at first and things can turn out like crap after that why get married and why get started.. i think i am kinda having a different perception towards what love is... It's like my mom tells me to tell her if i am upset over anything or sad but i just cant bring myself to talk to my mom and let her worry more since she said she felt a burden off after telling me news that made me like this... I just find it so hard to hold my tears back and pretend i am okay... i think that seeing that someone's smile everyday can help me to lessen how i feel...

Yesterday i have actually been told something kept from me for 3 yrs... hmm guess i now officially do not have a complete family so to say. But i guess i dun blame anyone for things that happened but yea the feeling of being lost and sad came and i guess i didn't had the mood to do anything for the whole of yesterday well... So now i shall just do my part as a student to pull through and do well in my studies so that my parents won't have anymore problems.

...Till then...

Things are not really turning out properly for me or so to say me.... Family got some probs and not sure what is happening or is things going towards the direction of chaos or Hell... Life has not proved much of any meaning lately and i am not sure if things are gonna be alright..

Went out today to practically learn how to use a camera properly to do something...But am not sure will this help or screw things up more... (LOOKING for a shoulder to use for my sorrows)

Moreover i have alr so called given up over some things that happened back then... Cause i realised doing nothing wrong and getting someone angry over you for something you were trying to help out and now trying to appease some one's anger over you..... Does not realli help much so just move on with life....

However one song realli made me pause and think.. God will make a way when there seems to be no way, he works in ways we cannot see, he will make a way for me, he will be my guide hold me closely to his side, with love and strength for each new day, he will make a way, God will make a way..

Till then.

I'M BACK!!! haha haven't been blogging for a so so long long time... haven't been living life to the fullest and holidays are damn damn frigging boring...Actually went for some job interview at some restaurant for the waiter post but up till now i haven't got any reply.... haha guess i am not gonna work...

A few more weeks to go before my holidays ends but found a new way to spend my time haha.. Swimming, swimming and more swimming and some psp-ing.. =) Tomorrow i am gonna so called re-learn my swimming stuffs as i am so called learning again from my old old old long time no see coach!! =) Kinda looking forward to it since my love for swimming came back after 3 whole years of not even touching the pool waters... LOL but yea i love swimming OMG..

Nothing much to look forward to accept the up coming class chalet... so happy that i am gonna see my classmates in no time =)..

................................................................Till then............................................................

HAHA!!!!! Today was so to say a fun day indeed hahaha...Woke up at 10am first time in history xavier usually wakes up so late(to me is late)... Realised was late for a meeting with sec 4 classmates so i rushed to get a bath and changed and zoom zoom out of my hse.. Took the mrt and went to dhouby gout to meet leonard and nick at cathy hahah... When we reached leonard was supposed to get his hair cut by some guy(forgot his name) but he wont be around so early so we left for pool at meridien haha...

After pooling for one hour we left to meet jeb and tristan at cini for a lunch buffet cum dinner haha basically the whole day's meals hahahah... Was eating at Suki shushi which is really feeling and ate till stomach nearly burst haha yea right!!!

After not long we went for a movie by the name 4bia haha... scary till can pee in the pants one hahah if you are frail hearted pls dun take the risk or something might happen hahah.... After the movie went for second round of pool and then of course all go separated ways to go home and stuff hahah... Though all went home with fear in our hearts and weird thotsin the mind hahah... Yea that's about it, till then... =)

SUN-BURN AMG!!!! haha my both shoulders now are burning and my skin is red like the hot scorching sun... haha.. Went swimming today near noon time so i do expect myself to get burned haha. Swam for about an hour plus plus not all the way swim la haha slack around with mother and father lols.. After that went to ang mo kio hub for a walk and some shopping so to say..

When we reached there, i walked into the converse stall and was planning to get myself a new pair of shoes but was considering if i shud spend on a shirt or a shoe so went to buy shirt in the end... Walked into Giordano with parents and brother then a black long sleeve T-Shirt caught my eye haha quite cdecent and nice looking so i got it haha using my mother's voucher which means i got it for free in the end heehee..

After shopping and stuff went to grandma's hse to have family dinner as usual(we do that nearly every week). Heehee had a rather decent dinner and was rather full taking into consideration i did not had a proper breakfast and dinner haha.. Yea that's about it. Till then....

Xavier is down with fever

Heh... Didn't managed to blog yesterday as i was running a friday night fever haha LOLS...Practically my toothache hurt like MAD yesterday and when i came home i was burning inside out.. Even ZS said i was freging red haha... Guess this is like the first time of 2008 that i actually fell ill and was aching everywhere... Thanks to Alif and Brenda for their concern =)

However, woke up today and found i actually had no more pain and of course thinking i am ok alr, went for a swim with my mother haha.. Swam till i got sun burn lols but not that serious maybe will be ok after some rest lols... That's about today but am having slight headache again guess this time i really have to visit the dentist or i will really DIE heehee.. Till next time...

The day Xavier falls sick

Practically i won't be saying much about today as I am not really feeling well...='( Havinh toothache, a bad headache and my left knee hurts to the core(has been like this since i woke up, but now better)..

Today went to my cousin's house to relax and to play his X-Box.... Heehee Hope that i will get well soon.. =)

Out The Whole Day

Heehee today started by going to the swimming pool again haha. Swam more then i did yesterday and now feel some aches on my back and stuff haha... After getting home went to bath and went out again heehee, been going out for the past few days.. Went to meet melvin after not talking for some time and was kinda ok but no mood as i waited for Gen for so long and me and zs was like tired already... Sorry Gen no offence just kidding la... heehee

When we reached we did not ice-skate but instead went to play arcade lor haha and then we went to eat but i did not eat later then know why heehee.. After that we went to buy some snacks from the 60s if i am not wrong and sat outside mac to eat and talk about some stuff heehee.. When was about 4 i left for Bugis to meet up with Alif and his so called fren(Cuzee) lols.. When i reached was trying to look for him haha always like that cant see him though he so tall haish...My bad haha.. When i found him he intro his cuzee to me called Aidah heehee actually i forgot and just asked Alif lols sorry aidah no offence...

We then made our way to Bugis junction where we so called walked around actually around cause we were walking aimlessly...-_-"... We then went to the arcade for the second time(for me) and we played outrun where i lost to Alif real bad lols and we played some basketball game hahah. Fun. then we met up with brenda to go dinner at zam zam.

When we reached we ordered the food and waited for it to come and for the time Alif and his cuzee can break-fast so we sat patiently and waited together.. And Alif was like playing with his so called paper aeroplane and making jokes i just couldn't take it hahah such a joke. Brenda and me were like dodging from being on camera by them hahaha... When the time came, we started to eat... And we all did not mange to finish the food as the portion sure is big and was tasty haha... Brenda and i took chicken murtabak while Alif took BEEF(Inside joke) murtabak and aidah took briyani heehee...

After eating we walked around under the rain as it started to rain uber heavy and we took a break at some building lols toilet break where the toilet wasn't realli in the best condition to be used haha.. Started to walk to Bugis mrt after that and we walked to esplanade to sit down and talk heehee... After that Brenda had to go meet her friend and then we bid goodbye.. Following Alif, aidah and i went under the awesome bridge and we were taking pics haha in the darkness surrounding us haha. After not long made our way to Raffles mrt and went our separate ways to go home.

While on the way home there was this bunch of what should i call err "lots of life" kids or should i say people who were playing loud music from their phone.. I was practically beside one of them when i took out my ipod and listened to my REAL music and he started to play some NOISE out lud and purposely put it right beside my ear trying to look for fault eh?? That's why i said "lots of life" -_-"... They tried many times to irritate me but to no avail, saw from the corner of my eye they were trying to look for my reaction but sorry i am rather a patient person though kinda sensitive to what you call that err "pure cleverness" i guess sorry it's just inborn... So yea they alighted and i was like thank God... Nothing much after that and went i reached home had a nice bath and heehee now using my lappie till then... =)

Oh ya before i go hope Alif, Aidah and BWENDA enjoyed today, will miss this happy moments since it's the holidays.. I love you guys =)
Same to you zs and Gen and Melvin sorry for all the misunderstandings =)

Happy Day

Today started with a Happy beginning....

When i awoke and opened my eyes today, i received a very pleasant present as i stretched my arms to reach for my phone under my pillow.. Trying to keep my heavy eyes opened, i saw a message. When i opened it and read it, it brightened up my morning and my day. =)

Left home around 7.40am to go SWIMMING haha i know it's kinda early in the morning but yea there the crazy me went off to swimming with my younger brother heehee. After not swimming for about 3 yrs i was kinda scared i might drown LOL random me... When i reached the water was uber cold and well i didn't think twice before jumping into the swimming pool. *Splash* and there xavier goes freezing in the water hahahah. Swam for about an hour before playing some games invloving some throwing of the ball with my younger bro and then we left. After swimming my hair is like uber dry and it feels weird guess after not touching chlorinated water for so long it really does something to your hair heehee.

After having a cool and nice shower went out to meet Zhen Sheng to go to the lib as he and Gen will be studying heehee but i dun need lol... He planned to meet at 10am but as usual i like to keep him waiting so i came late again haish...sorry hehe.. Guess if the mrt is near my house i will always be lazy to check the time =)
When we reached woodlands, while on the way to civic centre, zs and me saw melvin but he just didn't call out to us and since we saw him looking rather unhappy we just walked on... haish when isit gonna stop i realli duno...
Going on, upon reaching civic we went to mac for our breakfast as we haven't had breakfast yet so we sat down and ordered a rather nice meal heehee (inside joke, the cashier doesn't understand what we wanted to order sia, lols zs the 2 dollar meal is the sausage macmuffin and a drink by itself lols) After that Gen came and we started to eat.. Haha so kind of you to take napkins for us and straws thx =X

Upon finishing the meal we went to the lib to so called study for them while i used my lappie and watched comedies heee.... zs asked me one question about limiting reagent and i actually forgot what's a limiting reagent sheesh i really forget things fast enough.. After awhile he joined me in watching funny videos and were laughing thro them hahah.. Gen also came with a fren of hers and when asked to guess my age....15 a good 15 lol...Am not sure is this a good thing or a bad LOL..

Went online and talked to Brenda and Alif and raini. And i was like telling brenda my eyes might go blind lols( That's for not wearing goggles when you go swimming. ) heehee. After not long Gen said she was hungry and then we followed her to eat at KFC where she ordered Zinger burger and ate the burger without the bread -_-" ...

Heehee that's about it, but before i go just wanna thank Brenda for being so nice. Thanks alot =)

Well there is only one word to describe today, LOUSY.

Stayed at home the whole day and barely ate anything, as stomach wasn't feeling well.. Evrything was fine till i recieved something not so pleasant to my eyes. A rather stu*** sms!! Ya like wow that really brightened up my day.

Been trying to talk to a friend of mine to clear up some trouble and stuff but wow only to get a good impression of him thinking that i don't care. Not gonna elaborate but yea sending sms wrongly might just be another way of trying to let people see what you think or feel about something...

Moving on....

Oh ya special thanks to Shahirah whom helped me do up my blog pretty nicely done. =)
And Alif whom helped me with some of the blogging stuff thanks alot heehee. Till next time...

Today was an awesome day though sad one for me. Went to east coast together with BWENDA, ALIF, TRUDY and last but not least my friend(Leonard) for a so called job interview. Reached rather early at city hall to meet up with alif first. When i reached i sms him to see where he was and to my surprise he just came out of the train going towards pasir ris that just left. I was like LOL when i saw him. We sat down and he opened his bag only to find a m*d shop in there haha.

After that we went to paya lebar to meet with the rest. Reached rather early and found a place at mac to slack about. We(I) bought fries for us to eat and he went to help me get iced lemon tea from mac haha.
Ok skipping to when we reach east coast to look for the place for the job interview, we were shocked when we found out that the shop was a push cart shop =X

After the people in charged talked to us about this and that we went to try out the product called the swaveboard.
When i saw that it only had two wheels i was like OMG i am so gonna fall!! LOl ok random me... While practicing Alif got a hang so quickly while the rest were like trying. After awhile i managed to get a bit was so so but accidently knocked leonard on his leg area above the ankle *SORRY* ps. Trudy on the other hand was standing at the side not wanting to touch the board at all, guess she was afraid to fall and hurt herself.

After about half and hour we returned the boards and went cycling together heehee... It was quite enjoyable and we went to bedok jetty for awhile only to find a cute black coloured dog being trained by its master. What a good swimmer it was haha. After cycling we went home and yea guess that's about the end of the fun. =)

Oh ya was taking the train with brenda as trudy went home by bus. Was a little emo yesterday but at least we did talk a bit and had something to laugh about in the train heehee. =)

Guess am not gonna touch on the sad things that happened but gonna move on.. And when i checked my horoscope it was quite shocking as it was accurate. It said if a friend of yours is having probs with you, take a break from it today. Well said well said... =)