Currently i am feeling rather down and out or this world... Rather alone and emotional... Well after seeing and finding out things not supposed for your well being, ofc i will feel lost. Seeing how things turned out for my parents, really made me think hard.. Since love is like so lovey dovey at first and things can turn out like crap after that why get married and why get started.. i think i am kinda having a different perception towards what love is... It's like my mom tells me to tell her if i am upset over anything or sad but i just cant bring myself to talk to my mom and let her worry more since she said she felt a burden off after telling me news that made me like this... I just find it so hard to hold my tears back and pretend i am okay... i think that seeing that someone's smile everyday can help me to lessen how i feel...